Until now, I could not believe how stupid this girl back then (I’m talking about right after college) because she fell in love with a guy so rotten, a spoiled brat indeed and a closed-minded one. But of course, she didn’t see it at first how narrow-minded the guy was. She didn’t see it coming for he was so sweet and caring. He always found ways to called at the phone and at that time, she felt so great that a guy gave so much attention to her. If she should’ve known, she will never give a second glance at the guy. Well, blame it to her stupidity and she was so young back then but hey, I know we did something stupid too when we're young, she's not alone. Actually, her friend in college was the one who introduced her with the guy, well that friend of her and the guy is a first degree cousin so that explains on how they've met.
If truth be told, he’s not a good looking guy, if she look on the physical side he’s really not a good looking guy—-untidy, be pimpled checks, lots of curly hair, moreno, a set of a not so white teeth full of nicotine, a not so kissable lips ( he smoked a lot like a chimney so no wonder his lips so black) , a not so very tall guy (just 5’3 and she's 5'4--see the difference!?), the way he dress--looked so bad and it goes with his so baduy shoes too and got an earring on the right ear that he thought he looked so cool with it. A pair of dirty fingernails and a long nail on his small finger and his toenails was so annoying too. Her fetish is a clean fingernails and toenails so every time she saw his dirty nails, she really like to cut them off ! She wants her guy to be always clean and smell like a morning dew but this guy here she's talking about---smell stinks, really and she wonder why she was so blindly in-love with him back then!
Ooppss...Sorry , she don’t want to be sound rude here but that’s the way she see it. She knows she's not pretty too but she have the right to say this, haven't she ?
If he see this blog and will read this then feel so sorry for him that she shared this to the world because she need to let it out now, this is long overdue ( 9 years) but what the heck, she need to share this so that people will learn to stand up again after a heartache and hey, he cannot hurt her anymore so thank you for the heartaches, she feel strong and wise now. Though she's not looking now but she will be more extra careful this time and not closing any doors and windows if someone will come her way and will respect and love herself even more than anything in this world.
She was so blind, was so blindly in love at that time that she ignored her best friend’s advice and she became another person, who would have thought that she's going to be so martyr ( in short a STUPID one)for this guy. She learned to disobey her parents and lie a lot. They had a 4 years relationship and at that time, she never remembered a happy times with him, what she remembered was how she cried and pitied herself. She could not go out without telling him first who’s with her, she could not read her text messages on her phone without him reading it first, she could not answer her calls if they’re together (so she always put it on silent then), she could not touch the computer without telling him first that she will check her friendster account and her offline messages on yahoo. Sure, he would not know if she surfed the net or whoever texted her, or whoever called her cause they’re not always together 24/7.
See, how selfish he was??? She never meet a person so selfish like him! She lost her own identity and she was no longer the person that her friends knew. She changed a lot from being a happy care-free girl to a silent girl. She looked very old then and had dark circles around her eyes, she lose weight ( that was the only good thing happened to her--losing weight-—Lol) and she was totally paranoid at that time. Jeez!!
The love that she felt for him turned to hatred-—a hatred that grew and grew bigger that she got tired with him, she lost her thing with him, the excitement of seeing him. She was not bothered anymore if they had a fight, she forgot how to cry and her heart was turned cold stone, she realized the futility of trying to continue her journey with him, she wanted him to go away-—far from her, where he cannot hurt her, or shut his mouth up and or stabbed him on the back. Morbid, she knows but her friend could testify that who’s with her during those times though her friend had her own problem too but that’s another story. She left him without a word or two but he was persistent and he was so desperate to have her back in his life that he told her they have hectares of hectares of farm and he will be the one to inherit all of it so he said that if she will accept him back, he will offer all things she never had in her whole life---Jeez!---what a self-conceited dumb guy! What a cheapskate! Just by a mere thought, she wants to puke ! He actually think he can buy her with that lousy excuse of him! God, it was so sickening! But her feelings for him was no longer there, she could not bring it back anymore.
Oh well, she's glad that the nightmare was over though they never had a proper closure but for her, it’s better that way. She's not sure if she's ready to forgive him but one thing’s for sure, she's totally over him now. As the old song says I REMEMBER THE BOY BUT I DON’T REMEMBER THE FEELING ANYMORE. When she saw him after 9 years of not seeing each other, she really felt pity for him for he’s still the same guy-—still selfish and narrow-minded person—-nothing’s change---still a self-centered, self-conceited spoiled brat as ever—-still persistent in a wrong way—-that was totally a big turned off.
So let me ask you, can you love a guy like that? I'm sure you'll go ballistic once you'll know that the guy you love is a self-centered asshole! Certainly, with a guy like that, it’s better to be left alone than loving him and will give you heartaches in return. It’s useless! A futile one!
Maybe, it’s time for him to grow up ( never blame a parents for giving their son everything for they only want the best in this world for him, if the son grow up like a rotten spoiled brat it's his fault. Never question the love they showed to their son cause for them, it is right.) Just hoping that he will meet the right woman for him, who will not leave him, who will stay beside him even on the worst days of his life. Hoping he learned his lesson because this girl learned her lesson in a hard way----A ONE MILLION PESOS HEARTACHES.
Wanna know who's that girl with the one million pesos heartaches???? I'm sure you know her, you do... (--,)
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