They say that the most enjoyable time in school was High School and I wonder why? People might wonder if I say that I was not really enjoying my high school days, it was quite sad but I must say that I had a little fun too with my best friend, cherry. One time we were in their house and my crush was her neighbor and we stalked on him—I mean not really stalked but we tried to peep over the window of their room just to see the guy. And oh, I remember there were a particular time that I gave letter to the guy—I thought that was Okay and cool but If I will do it now, hell come high water, I will never do that. I want to struggle my pretty neck—what a shame ! But who's going to judge me, I was a teenager then crazy over a cute guy, i'm sure everyone can relate to that.
I was never really popular back in high school though I had so many girl friends, truth be told I was an ugly duckling, lots of curly hair, morena and a little on the heavy side too. So I was really insecure with myself that time and low self-esteem especially if the boys started to bully me. There were particular boys who always made my day uncomfortable, they knew how to make my day worsen, learned to hate them and when my tears starts to fell, that’s the only time they leaved me in peace. How ironic life could be? They kind of completed my whole day so hatred over came me and said one day, you’ll going to pay what you did to me, and kiss my feet and bow on me ---that was NICE thinking 11 years ago .
I don’t know why but they like to see me crying in anger, they laughed at me like I was a clown, made fun of me. There were time that I don’t want to go to school already, I was afraid to go to school I might see them again. My feet were always heavy whenever I’m in school so I taught myself to be snob—I guess, it was a defense mechanism so that nobody can hurt me. No one had ever tried to court me (poor me—boohoo) or even make friends with me – I mean boys never tried to be-friend with me—I was like “haller I’m not a monster here and eat you alive”. But then again, it was Okay with me because my parents were so strict then that I was not allowed to talk with boys. I guess, that’s the reason why boys never tried to be-friend with me because, I was protecting myself from them. Hhhmmm…. It was still Ok with me. Lolz…
Though my high school day’s kind of sad but it was not the worst one either. But for me the most enjoyable time was when I was in college, I had a great time back then, so much fun with my barkadas and oh the boys were not making fun of me anymore, I guess they grew up, they were open minded already and should I mention that they we’re friendly--- unlike high school boys… oh well, college boys more matured than high school boys, no one will argue with that! There were some tried to, you know but I was more comfortable just being friends with them, hang around with them without malice—oh I guess I was one of the boys in college but hey, I am not a lesbian. I never pictured myself being a "tomboy", huh, that will be the day!
I never tried having a boyfriend in college because for me, having a boy friend was a distraction on my studies and I am the type of person who never welcomes distraction because once I am distracted I do something stupid. So I was sticking on my rules that no boys can distract me and they will be always a friend. But I ate those rules of mine when I was on my last year in college, I fell in love with this guy who’s not worthy at all with my love but I will not mention him here. He was already a past and I had moved on with my life.
Or did I really moved on?------- hhhmmm…. Check it out on my next blog! Hehehe… Tah Tah! ^_^
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